It's been very quiet around here lately because I've been having rough time. After five years with the Boy, I've found myself single. Three weeks after the fact, my head is still spinning, as you can imagine, mostly because I didn't see it coming. There weren't any big arguments but it happened anyway. I've been unhappy for months, he said, and it was over.
I'm 25 and this is the first time I've been single in my adult life. The Boy, Nick, was supposed to be someone I made out with while I waited to stop hurting from the breakup with my first serious boyfriend. I soon realized I liked Nick and we got together for five years. There were only a few months between relationships though I was so sure I'd be single for a year. It didn't work out that way but I couldn't have been happier; I was happy until the end.
So, my heart hurts and it's hard to keep moving. I've done my best to avoid sad songs so I don't burst into tears at my desk, or at least do it a little less often than I did the first week. I still have songs that say what I want to say (and what my friends will soon be sick of hearing).
People say busy and hang out with friends but Al Green's question is one I keep asking myself.
The solo piano is like an empty bar near closing, Ella's voice is amazing and then there are these lyrics: I'm moody all the morning / Mourning all the night / And in between it's nicotine / And not much hard to fight
Because it's there when you wake up.
I bought this song on a 45 last weekend. Linda Jones is an underrated soul singer. When she sings, I feel like she's put it all on the record and there's nothing left. This song is definitely an example of that and the tears come.
What songs are on your break-up playlist?